For Jag

[hollow_moon]

Their time together at his grandfather's had been lovely, and spent mostly in bed. Eventually, however, Val had been forced to return to work, and he was certain Jag would have to do the same.

"I've a lot going on in the next week, but I swear I'll call you the moment I've got it all under control," he'd promised- And he'd been true to his word, inviting Jag to join him for dinner the first chance he got.

He'd considered restaurants, but Jag wasn't much for being spoiled in Val's experience. He'd have gladly cooked a meal for the man himself, but he hadn't had a chance to pick up groceries, and they'd never be delivered on time... So he'd settled on a catered dinner at the museum. Nothing too posh, but a nice mix of South Korean cuisine that he hoped Jag would like. 

Meeting at the museum meant Val could work right up until the moment Jag arrived- Something he didn't find ideal, but was certainly necessary at the moment while they switched out several of the exhibits and went through various requests to lend out certain items.

"I'll leave the back door unlocked," he'd told Jag. "Just let yourself in, I'll likely hear you coming, but if i don't I'll just be in my office."

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[hollow_moon]

Leaning in to meet him, Val kissed him firmly, "I adore you," he whispered, smiling softly.

He wasn't brave enough to use the 'L' word just yet, but he had to say something. he had to try and communicate what it was he felt.

[jageskro]

The whispered words made something warm swell in Jag's chest, to the point that it felt as if he might burst. No one had ever said those words to him, no one had ever used that verb, adore. He didn't know what to do with the feelings in his lungs, so he leaned in for another kiss and tried to pour them all into it. "I don't understand why," he whispered, between one kiss and the next, unwilling to let go of Val's mouth for now.

[hollow_moon]

"Nothing to understand, I just do," Val smiled brightly, returning each kiss and then stroking Jag's hair. "I adore you, and I'm glad to have you in my life."

[jageskro]

"I'm glad to be in it," Jag told him honestly, meeting his gaze, his own warm and oh so thankful. "I just - it feels too good to be true. You seem too good to be true."

[hollow_moon]

"Yeah?" Val smiled. "Well, that's a new one," he laughed, genuinely touched. "No one's ever said that before."

[jageskro]

"No one's ever said they adored me," Jag answered with a shrug, torn between amusement and sheepishness and landing somewhere in the middle. "That makes us even, don't it."

[hollow_moon]

"Do we have to be even? Is that important?" Val asked curiously.

[jageskro]

"Er, that was a joke," Jag winced, then chuckled. "A lame attempt at a joke, apparently."

[hollow_moon]

Val seemed unsure, but he nodded.

"Alright," he replied, nodding. "I just worry sometimes that you think we're on uneven footing."

[jageskro]

"On - what level?" Jag asked with a frown, and really wanted to stop talking about things and spend a little while just being with Val, but he was going to face things head-on for once, instead of running.

[hollow_moon]

"Just... In general, I suppose," Val said, not sure how to explain his thoughts.

[jageskro]

"Financially?" Jag tried and figured out, since it was the most obvious option. "Or socially?"

[hollow_moon]

"Both, I suppose?" Val replied awkwardly. "Maybe I'm reading into it all wrong, but- That seems to be a common theme in any problems we have. Where we come from, where we each stand- It feels a bit silly to pretend it doesn't cause tension. You assume the people I know will- I don't know, look down on you or something? At least, I assume that's what's happening. ...Perhaps you look down on them. I'm not sure. ...And it's not something I know how to deal with. I say things, and I often fear I'm only making it worse."

[jageskro]

"I'm Roma, in all the ways that matter," Jag answered, after a moment. "I'm busking for a living, living in a squat. I nick the odd wallet when I don't make enough. People like you - they usually do look down on me. And yeah, I look down on them right back, when they're priviledged arseholes like that." His thumb had been rhythmically stroking Val's hand, and he squeezed it now. "But you're not."

[hollow_moon]

"It's something we have do deal with eventually though, Jag. If we get serious, I'll want you to meet my family. ...And surely you don't want to busk and squat forever," he added, assuming that had to be the case simply because it was no life he'd want to live himself.

[jageskro]

"I don't know what I'll -" Jag frowned, and cut himself short. He swallowed, glanced down, then looked up at Val. "I might never want your sort of life, Val."

[hollow_moon]

"I don't expect you to, but it could be a problem in the long term," Val said quietly, seeing no reason to pretend it might not be.

[jageskro]

Jag rubbed at the back of his neck in a show of nervousness. "Yeah, well. That's long term." He would be surprised if he hadn't fucked this up long before then. He would be surprised if he hadn't fucked this up by the end of the year.

[hollow_moon]

"It's something we need to be mindful of is all," Val said, though his smile seemed faded now- As though reality was slowly creeping in.

They were so different- Could this ever really work?

[jageskro]

Jag leaned in and paused, giving Val time to pull away before pressing his lips to his in a soft, hesitant kiss. "But let's try, yeah? We'll make it work somehow." He was doing his absolute best not to fuck it up, after all.

[hollow_moon]

"I'd very much like to try," Val said, chasing Jag's lips and exhaling softly.

Because honestly, he'd much rather see it go up in flames than never let it happen at all.

[jageskro]

Relief washed through Jag as he deepened the kiss, bringing his free hand to Val's neck and pouring that relief, and his gratitude, into the kiss.

[hollow_moon]

Val felt it, and he moaned softly into the kiss, tangling his fingers in Jag's hair as he pulled him closer.

[jageskro]

Jag bit at his bottom lip, then licked his way back into Val's mouth, heat spreading like a fire through his body. "Tell me we're done talking for now?" he asked against his lips, right before kissing him again, before giving him time to answer.

[hollow_moon]

Val didn't answer, he simply returned the affection, settling in closer as his hands found Jag's shoulders.

He was content not to talk any more- Not when it felt like the conversation had been taking a melancholy turn.